If religion and philosophy have the same goal, that they both wish to explore the spiritual or 'unspeakable' side of mankind, then Wittgenstein's statement may be taken as a kind of warning to all philosophy: that their principle aim is inherently unspeakable and ineffable (by its very nature), and so it would be better to say nothing at all than to say something that will inevitably be incorrect, or at best, inaccurate.
However, silence is not an answer to our questions. Rather it is the lack of acknowledging the question's validity, and such silence is much worse than censorship; it is the silencing not only of mistakes, but of any attempt whatsoever. It is easy enough for us to talk about the world around us, since we share it in common, and since we all live within it. It is much more difficult to discuss the world within us, especially since doing so is usually based on the usage of a language designed to talk about the physical (i.e. 'common') world. And so, it is clear why we need art, as human beings, since it alone is able to directly address our spiritual existences, to cut through misunderstandings and corporeal things and speak directly to our 'souls' by the only means we know how - namely, by addressing the spiritual with a language that itself is spiritual (e.g. myth, music, etc).
But, to get back to the matter at hand: Should we relegate the care of spiritual matters to the world of art, or should we be permitted to address spirituality in an analytical fashion? Should philosophy forget about spirituality altogether, and confine itself to smaller and more manageable concerns, thereby allowing itself to be transformed into a specialty to be practiced by 'experts' alone? Similarly, should religion simply be 'done away with'? And would it be responsible for human beings to take on such an attitude? Would this kind of transformation merely restrict the aims of philosophy and religion (which are presently the concern of all humans), or would it also restrict the field of art? Since we are all spiritual beings, wouldn't this kind of transformation of purpose affect the spiritual lives of everyone? Would we all be forced to become artists in order to satisfy our spiritual needs, or would art too become a specialty relegated to specialists alone, to whom the rest of us would have to turn to fulfill our spiritual needs? And if the latter were to occur, would this not mean the spiritual deaths of many?
If we could not express our spiritual uniqueness on an individual level, we would have to rely solely on the spiritual expressions of others in order to give our lives meaning, lest we resign ourselves to accept an altogether meaningless existence. And if so, if we are to accept this kind of narrowing of the purpose of religion and philosophy, and if we would not, thereby, all become artists, then this would invariably mean the creation of a new upper class, a new ruling class... a ruling class of artists. With art becoming a specialty, the artists would reign supreme as a unified force which represented the total spiritual meaning of every individual's life.
And is the alternate possible? Though we are all capable of being spiritual, are we all capable of giving expression to our spirituality by means of art? Are we all capable of becoming artists? Though we may all need art in our lives to feel whole, I fear that we are not all equally capable of expressing ourselves artistically.
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But why must we express our spiritual uniqueness upon everyone else? Are our lives any less meaningful because we hold it within ourselves. Perhaps Wittgenstein meant that we should remain silent if we do not wish to express "our world within" artistically or otherwise because doing so would be fruitless to others as well as ourselves. Must we all need art to feel whole?
Typically, Wittgenstein's quote is taken to be a commentary on the limits of language; but since everything that can be expressed must make use of language, his words have a much broader implication, which I have explored here in terms of the question of spirituality.
I do think that everyone needs art... but I'm not sure if I could answer definitively why that is. I think that our desire for art and need for spiritual self-expression through art is a symptom of our living in civilization. Human beings are still animals, and so, living in civilization is basically unnatural. If we were to leave society and live in nature, it is possible that we wouldn't need art, because there would be nothing whatsoever repressed, i.e., nothing "within" that would need to be "let out".
I tried to relate but could not, I don't know what spirituality really is. I'm not sure that there really is a spirituality, I kind of think people use the term to mean loneliness, but they don't generally realize it.
What if alex and all the people you find are people that are famous. Umm liz ex looks like one of the singers from stevie nicks. And liz looks like this girl from my school thats a lesbian umm did you ever think that maybe your dad is famous and were both being cursed. Even if i saw you on the street i wouldnt run after you. Its bc you told me not to chase you I dont know who alex is but he looks like this catholic at my school named gabriel. Hes a satanist. And he would draw a lot of gore he was nice to me in school. Im scared kelly. Today i thoughti saw alex and then melody latertold me to take my medicine. It felt like i 2as taking alexs medicine. Not mine alexs medicine hurts to take it. It feels like it pinches your groin area.
Also i dont know whats going on but i got really annoyed at that. It hurts.theyre murdering me and your the only one that can stop it. I think my mom is nuterious at killing anyone who doesnt want to jpin her world relgion. I dont love my mom nor my dad theyre satanic. I hate how they go on about being satanist. I want to pass away and wake up in a world where there isnt anyone fighting over money. Or trying to kill me for money nor pain. I hate especially those jesus freaks. They hurt people. Im super hingry and im crying i want my pompus dad put of the way. Someone is using him Hes not the same
Im really annoyed how my dad never read the harry potter books. My mom even read them. Maybe youll be a doll and reaf them too its important
Darkhippo did you know kelly proposed to me at disneyland. You should tell him off for leaving me. Im still not married and i told all prospective men to leave me. Kelly is a jerk. Im a heart breaker. Your loss!
Its really. Cool how you dont have an answering machine. And its really cool how you never answer your phone. And its really cool how you havent called me im supposedly your soul mate and you wont ever answer the phone. Call me jerk. I want my cd making man back. I miss the music you introsuce me into to. What are you plauing dead
Are you dead i miss running into your arma. I cant live without you i cant live without you come back i summon you lord i summon uou lord.
You dont have an instagram or a tick tock or even a face book Whata wrong with you stop being un popular. I had a dream about you yesterday find me im gonna write a letter to your boat
Im at an atb concert. Weeeee my friend got me a ticket
Im gonna cry. Omg again you helped me in life. I went to apple one bc thats were you told me to go years ago if i needed a job. I was so insecure before and i didnt go. Well i went in person to the one in the city of orange and they were really helpful. I went to the one in huntington beach and they didnt help at all. I passed the typing test. Im waiting to see if i get annintervire tomorrow. Im really excited. I hope i get one. I want to cry. Thanks for helling me im so nervous. My make up is so pretty. I bought the stuff i uses to out on my face years ago. I bought a different brand. Im so excited. I need a job.
I coudlnt stop laughing on the way to the target. I kept laughing and gigling. If it wasnt for you i wouldnt have a high school diploma or even know what apple one was. Its funny how one friendship can do so many things. Thanks.
So while in waiting for my interview to be called in im gonna go to the grocery store and buy veggies. Im starting my vegan raw diet today. Gonna buy apples and veggies and use a food grater to prepare everything. Im gonna be skinny now. So ill have an office job and a new diet. Hopefully ill be skinny. Also im not taking breaks anymore off of working. In gonna work till i reture so i can have retirement money. I didny get married. You need to be married for 10 years to get social security off your spouse. So yeah im excited. Im also ready to age. They have botox they have surgeries im gonna age gracefully. Im so happy today. Its nice driving through santa ana bc i dont have memories with anyoen but you in it lol
Im cheating. Im eating panda express but i boughf everyfhing i need to start the vegan. Im eating at panda bc i didnt eat breakfast and im famished.
Omg kelly i got an interview. They want to do a typing test and a reading comprehention test. The job is for a medical call center.
Thank you so much again for like informing me on so much info. Id be lost if it wasnt for you.
Tomorrow at 10 am i have an interview.
Hahaha im laughing. Its like down the street from where you used to work at questex media. Hahahha your prayers always work kelly. You got me trapped in orange county.
I jad a dream there was a car problems where evweyone was misaing. Ans there waa tusami. I didnt experience it but i saw the after glow
And there was a rockbully convention. Then i saw that you were with a soman. And had a child. Uou teated me really bad and told me to stay away. You married her before the tusanami. It was an african american. It could even be sharon bc she was tall. Pleaae kwlly play safe. Ise a condom amd dont marry any one other than me or im gonna make mount olypus rise from my pent house. Dont you dare break my heart. I qas really depresswd in the dream. Sharon is a mayan and shes scot irish too. So pleaae staybaway from woman.xoxo
The wedding you had was expensove. Please dont get married. Please.
The tusanami means problems for me like crying. Like crying a lot. Please pray that nothing bad halpens tobme. I also saw that i was forced to read a satanic book.
There is any other man i love other tham you. Im fake. I found out how to be fake when uou left orange county.
The police was kocking me out bc your wife called them. I left before they showed up.
I found out how to make orange county people act nice to me. I just tell them my dad worked for lapd. If you marry me then you will have lapd rules. Dont beluve me try it out. No one will burn you latte.
My mom is really skinny. Most of her family dies when theyre skinny. I dont know how to get her to eat more.
I went to victoria secret and i found somsthing cool. Indica cannabis oil that smells like cotton candy. Ive like a mew kind of pot head. Im super happy. Its a head high and it also males me laugh.i love you so much baby.
My dads roman and your greek ok. My dad is zeus. In the greek world kelly your NELEUS and im pretty sure im Chloris and um. Im dating apollo bc i want the war to end between the myans gods the incas and the aztecs. Theyre martyering each other in california. Im sick of the nonsesne. Why cant they just court each other produce good offspring and become Peaché remeber i said o wamted to create a line of Peaché its what i want a new antibiotic.like imagine a mayan married an aztec. They would make a peach almlst eurppean color. Liz is a mayan and i dont know what phil is but dont scare me. The kid isnt oeach bc liz didnt marry an aztec. And europe will curse anyone who marrys an indian.
I got a dna test my mom os otalian amd portugese. Ok. No indian or mexican or Spanish blood. My mom.thinks that the portugese came from umm none of your bussiness till you deside if im good enough to fit posidens feet. I had a beach mansion bigger than your dads when i was a sperm. So fuck off you if uou call me italian. My grandma is from portugese and there is still a castle on my territory.
The doll your named after was discontinued after we broke up.https://barbie.fandom.com/wiki/Kelly
Im not into polly pockets everyda . My favorite collection of toys are the mattel dolls barbie friends and family. I got rid of all the christian bibles and works out of the house. Even the book of mormon and the JW stuff that was left at my front door step. So now we need to talk about the bible you gave m . Im actually considering getting baptised by the . They still use the saints and they have full submerge baptis . To be honest before i met you i went into the baptist version of the churc . They just baptise the head. S
Stay away from mormon . They have a sect were they have homosexuals. They believe in punishment by worm . Im scared bc they left me a baptismal card. And angelique mariah maruricio i think is the jw old woman that visits my house. I cant tell you how it happened but angelique took the baptismal car . It just means they made me mormon without wate . That means to me they are not true believers of christ and could put me in a lot of dange . I really like the calvary chapel. Im gonna get the nerve to get baptised. If it doesnt work then ill go to the catholic place but i dont like praying the rosary. I dont wamt to know that all souls go to heave . Is heaven in your head. In your choldhoo . Is it in the clouds. They dont digress where it i . So calvarly chapel better tell me how to find my family memebers in a happier place.
Im sorry your doll got dicontinued but your still open to use the rest of the barbies with me and play nice. I had red hair when i was littl . I think im ariel. And im doomed bc someone bit the orginal toe . So im buying back toys i used to have. Hopefully my boobs get better. Bc since i lost ariels bra my boobs have been through trouble.
I think melody is my barbi . Thats why shes so pretty. Shes probably one of my flight addant barbi . I had so many that i have to slow down with her and tell her to relax. Shes still scared of staying in a box without a voic . And im still scared bc ken never has real hair. Hes always had a plastic head with no hair. Im gonna write a letter of complaint. Meloys relaxing since i called her barbie. The read head in the barbie collectiom is midge. So im midg . Have you listend to the cramps. You look like the lead singer and the bassit looks like me with my red hair. Creepy. I found prood that i had red hair. Im scared bc i dont know if eunice or paul is using me and melody to lighten themselves. I think jesus doesnt like me bc im not baptise .
Im gonna buy all my most important toys back. I really like the calvary chapels writing. It helped me with my reading comprehention. But to be honest i dont know where the one you bought me is. Im gonna buy a new one and try not to be scared of jesus. Im scared of him and his houses of chris . Theyre scary.
Sharon is hurting us. Shes the reason why were not ok. In the real world i think she is la virgen de guadalupe. She looks like the virgen mary of mexico. She envied us and to be honest she only helps people of color. Shes the reason why you left. She broke us up. Ok in more ways than you think. Ive seen her with your ex and the veil woman ive tole you about the meth user. Sharon is a meth user now. Im scared to be honest without you bc you have the can heal me. I dont know why. Melody isnt ok either she was hurt by many people in la luente that worhsip la virgen de guadalup .
I need new expensive ovaries that la virgen de guadalupe cant hurt. Shes trying to martyre me and melody. Im not sane. Im insans since sharon showed up. Its like shes living in me and everyone i kmow.to be vengeful and that it.
Sharon came amognst us and made us feel safe and warm. Then melody left to spain and she became really dejected. She coudlnt stop envying melodys vacation.
Sharon is making you evil. It was alex who had all those creepy catholic crosses up. Or one. If its not real it was on a spiritual level. They have a big cross near the enterance of the gaming room and weight lifting room. If theyre catholic they brought la vigen de guadalupe into our lives. Now we have insane christians around us with one apprition of la virgen de guadalupe. The reason why i wasnt married right after high school its bc the catholics i knew were into things i would never do to my family. I dont want you litening to your schizophrenic voices bc to be honest sharon could be abducting you and trying to hurt me and melody. Guess what even scarier sharon is from the town my mom was born in. Shes not white anymore shes not our saint anymore shes on the african side and only tried to protect africa in the flesh. In spirit she may be with us but i dont trust her anymore. She wont stop acting like she normal but she always comes back with super human stregth. What if she just a virgin i met. Shes not a virgin anymore and she doesnt think about nice things. She first envied the love you had for my family. Then she envied the food we ate at home. Then she envied the romance novels in my foyer. I need a new saint. I cant be alone. I cant believe alex left melody over a prank. I told alex my grandparents were jewish. I couldnt stand him kissing my sister in public without an engaement ring. It used to make me mad. My grandparents on my dad side are not jewish. So if alex is gone bc he thinks were jewish correct him. My dad is a non californian catholic.
In california he stopped being a catholic bc his priest wasnt here. He says the church us full of weirdos.
Theres family and neighbors trying to kill us for the property.
Pablo is a buddist and a catholic. And i even think a mormon. I dont know why but i feel really not unholy. Bc there were worms in the pills i was taking. Sharon went to school to become a paych technician and they kicked her out of school or she didnt finish the year i left home. What if she went in there and created a new pill to hurt me bc she envious of whatever i have with my family. Theres still a worm on my heart line on my left hand. It need to die. I cant be housing them. I talked to the psychologist to give me pills that dont kill an embreyo. And im on them but to be honest my family doesnt want me on them.
Its over the mound of saturn and over the mount of sun. My hands dont stop getting darker. My skin hurts. I dont even touch the sun.
In the foyer alexs mom has a big cross and she really racist unless its her country columbia. I found out that most of mexico and south america have racist wars. Theyre really not nice unless youre from their country.
Frank magaletta i hope you hurt them all in me and melodys honor. I dont like how there people showing us theyre immortal through jesus christ. Like why did you abandon us. Do you still think our grandmother is nice. Like when are you gonna stop pretending to be in heave. Im being tanned everyday i get older by biggot . Theyre not normal roswrios family thinks being white is to go to heaven.
Sharon became amy robles and shes with pablo and they probably got married. Sharon is a catholic. Shes been abusing me tonight and she keeps trying to see my past in dreams. She wont stop using me to get white with blue eye . When melody left she used my whole body.
Shes using my dad to get white and turn her eyes blue. She walked in and yhen walked in through pablo or eunice. Sharon is using me and melody to turn white and tried stealing money from my dad. I dont know if shes using her catacism or my moms religion or what but shes been abusing me.
He actually paid taxes over sharons body once when she was living here. And i dont know why but she uaing him to change her whole life around and married pablo is trying to. Thats the virgen de guadalupe. Trying to abuse me my sister and my dad. And trying to defend pablo. She took him to college and threw me out of the house.
What if sharon is satan and she later used us all and arrived as amy robles. Sharon robles. Amy robles. She keeps hitting me as im writing this. Her mother is with an african american and i dont know why but sharon asked to be white like me in the santeria candle that she took to light. Like when is this gonna end.
She keeps holding me down wiyh pablo and talking behind my ear in waling life. Like why is she hovering around my dad with pablo.
Amy robles is really tall. Amy could have used you me and my dad. Ok. To be honest i cant talk. Amy who is sharon is threatening me in my parents house and breaking my womb up and hitting me. She wont stop hitting me and breaking my womb. She hurting me. I cant sound sane only someone really spirtually aware and knowlegabke would evwr understand whats going on. She like putting cigarettes in my body and burning me and trying to hurt me.
Sharon robles who is amy robles has three brothers. She can abuse us with her three brothers. I think shes holidng me down with her brothers.
I threw away the book you bought on the vacation i was supposed to go on with you. Helen was going to the university to be a psychologist. Shes the one that damned me and indoctrinated you agaisnt me. And kept saying i wasnt good enough got yoy. She kept saying it to me. Shes the one who ruined my relationahip with a lot of people i know. I threw away the (sigmone freud book) so we stop getting damed on earth. Helen has low self esteem bc shes asian and she talks about yhe asian race being above californians that have spanish heritage. I cant stand having to explain myself while you keep getting possessed by helen and that vile book where you act like im a patient that need to be ignored. Thats a sigmone freud mechanis . There are many schools of though . So yhe book is gonna be in the trash i dont want to psycho analysed by a fresh off the boat asian who keeps envying blue and blonde hair. She could ruin us for eternity if we dont damn her.
Im sick of interpreting dreams. Im into finding out whos real or not. Soemtimes im scared that im actually a sinful dead human thats in an alternative reality where no one knows i died in spirit many years ago as a little girl in the bath tub. I comitted sucide in the bath tub by trying to drown myself and immigrated my sister and i to australia. They caught me before i passed out in the tub. I threw out the book bc it was making me fat and frumpy and controlling everyone i kmow to call me insane. I dont know what kind of spell work koreans do but helen isnt my cup of tea. She ruined our relationship and kept asking me to ask for more money. I sick of how stuck up those asians are. They make fun of us bc were italian. What if theyre all atheist and they make fun of hiw romantic we are. I want to know whats real and whats not real. I think lower class likes pretending theyre something theyre not. Helen used to call me shakora all the time. Im tired of lower class people going to the university and propagating more mental illnesses. Im sane in my book im throwing her out of tge deck of cards that i will owm in the future to hold my life down.
I found out what tarot cards are for. Its not for forune telling. Theyre itlaian playing cards for gambling. Tarot cards are a gambling game.
I found the evil in the house. I found out why my whole life went upside down. It was the book of mormon. Glory hallaluja in the highest. I threw the book of mormon outside into the tras . They believe in pologamy and they believe ik sodomy. Im not gonna go down the list of supernatiral stiff that happened. But i swear all my girl friends and me were abused by the mormons. The missionary that came was gonna be a psychologist degree at BYU. Me and angelique and melody even saw a snake were the mormon sat. Me and shawn saw a poltergist in my room. Me and summer saw a poltergist i . Her house. Like my mom became a gamble . There are many bad things that happened. My teacher who always gave me an A refered me to a psychologiat at my enterance letter to FIDM. Both my fianccess left with a mormon. The one before you. And yo . Thank god i threw that book out. May god protect me from the demons the mormons use agaisnt not followrrs or followers. The book had been here for 17 years. I used to get raped by a poltergist and summer too. And all my girlfriends were all virginal when the book of mormon came they didnt want o wait till marriage. Can you believe this. Please pray for me and everyone on my block. I cant wait till the trash man comes and takes the book of mormon out. I saw many rapes and battery charges and people possessed by demons since that vile book came to my house. May god protect us all this year and may our faith in jesus grows stornger. Your faithful writer.
It was the day before elizabeth and sophia came over. So i went to my room to clean the room and my concious said to get rid of the mormon book. So i found the book on a book shelf and my conciouss said not to open it then i said i have to open it to check if there is an inscriptiom in it and to let me op . It to take my name off of it. I got no reply of my conciouss saying no. I found nothing in it.
So i got the book and threw it out into the trash can in the garden.
I wanted to find out today if there are snakes in the book and i found onlien that it has a pasage where there is a land with famine amd that there are many poisonous snakes. So i looked it up bc i kept having dreams of snakes bothering me. And everytimt i think of the snakes my friend from drama picks me up and helps ke walk. This was in high school the dream. I found now on my facebook my friend from drama is on my friends list. All i have to say is thank god i found the book and its out bc im sick of all the curses i get from it i dont wamt curses in my life.
There are parrots attacking me. My mom has love bird . And they already cut some of my vocal chord . Theyre attacking me and theyre not even near me they wont leave me alon . Im miles away pray for them not to touch me
I still think your supposed to say sorry to jH if you dont say sorry to her shes gonna continue to curse us. I saw her blog. Im really scares you dont know what a witch is. Shes a witch and her church is a satanic church. Ok did you know that kelly. Please say sorry to her and explain that you dont have enough money to pay for anything. And thag you were lookong at her friend bc she had money to pay for things. If you let her kmow that your poor than she will move on.shes threatening you on her blog dude. And she has your picture.
I looked on facebook a added the mormon missionarys. And i saw the mom of the woman that came over. She has a a big family. She looks like jH young. Maybe you wont belive me but i swear she looks lik jh young.
I took them off already after i threw out the book of mormon. Im scared of them.
She came jr or sophmore year to my house and.gave me a bible study. Then in jr year or senior year my friend moved away from the complex. I went to her new apartment and above her apartment there was a couple of people living there. One was named candy. I cant remember the other names. There was an old man that looked like my great grandpa. There was a young blonde woman and young blonde man that was her boyfriend and then the red head that looked like the missionary that came to my house. She was a stripper. That means its the missionary not jh bc jh looks like the mom but young. They were are smoking crystal meth. Im scared bc that man looked like my great grandpa. Did you know mormoms baptise the dead.
Like creepy!
Out of all your girlfriends youve had i swear jh the worst. She still hasnt takem dowm her blog nor has she written down more. If you read the blog slow youll see how shes threatening you.
If she is the missionarys mom im sorry.
Also she invited me to her wedding and i never went. In the picture she sent me of her fmaily there was a man there that looked like you and she said it was her cousin.i think i threw the picture out too. I dont want her bad vibes in my house.
The two girls that lived near my friends apartment meaning the one that looked like the missionary. Looked exsactpy like the missiomary only she had a round face like.mine. and she was holding my great grandpa hostage. I domt know who the blonde woman was and the blonde man. What if the blonde woman was my grandmother and the blonde man was someone from there family.hmmmmmm
They keep talking about resserection. I dont kmow kelly but im not lying.
Theres a woman living near my apartment and she looks like JH with dyed black hair. And i camt tell who the man is. In there apartment they have a water snake amd theyre feeding it goldfishes. I ran out amd im not going back for a long time. Im creeped out. Then after i added the missiomary on my facebook i saw the missionarys father and mother drive around into my complex. See how i sound funny. This sounds funny but i swear im not lying. Im not lying. I saw what i saw ans i know what i saw.
There like.egyptian curses all over the house and.i domt know how to get out of the apartment or the house. And.i dont.know why thr missiomarys came.to my house the year i was gonna go to college. The missionary was a psychologist major and in school i was threatened by the teacher to see a psychologist. After the missiomary came.to my house. Lucky enough the principle was busy and i was ignored. I dont even remember if he just told me to see the principle for whatever. What if he disnt say to see the psychologiat but seriously in my emterance exsam at the college i wanted to go to they he wrote that i needes a paychologist. Why did he even agree to write the enterance letter if he only wantwd to hurt me and also why does he always give me an A in class. I swear its the mormon missionary. I swear she cursed me with her mom and theyre witches and doing witchvraft amd stealing souls.
Also, before she came i didnt know anyone boys. I wasnt into dating. I wasnt gonna go out wuth anyone. I met boys after they came. First an indian. Then an english man. Then a spaninard. All of the dating that happened was really bad like i can imagine anything worse than going out with those people. Nov 13 is sadis hawkins damce. Ok so the mormons came before i dated anyone. Sadis hawkins was my first date jr year. The month before in october i met the indian and i went on one date to the movies. I broke it off bc he called my sister greasy. I met him by his backyard while walking home. Then i saw that guy in the library and broke it off with the indian to go to the sadis hawkins dance. He invited me to his church and i went. He broke up with me bc i wouldnt have sex with him. I think they came to the house in the summer time to have a bible study. Bc i was not going to school. I domt know its creepy.what creeps me out the most is that the english blond eman with the church actually becomes my friend and visits me sometime. I dont know why but i got so mad that he broke up with me that i moved schools amd ao mad that he wanted sex. We started being ffiends again after his 05 the year he went to college. And he wanted to kick the spaniah mans to a bloody pulp
I wouldnt let him and this was october. In novemeber that guy broke up with me bc of a lot of things i did and said. In concultuon i wanted to break up with both of them bc i couldnt stand. I went to prom with spanish man. It was around his firat year of college. All this manners to me so im writing it down.
Whats scary is that how to heck did the english blonde man give me an LP of the mormon church. He gave me that record around the time i was working at carls jr. Which was the spanish mans first year of of school at college. Whata creept is that i got raped around that time by my best friemd.and neighbor and he took my virginity. Like there was blood all over the floor. He was possessed by a demon. Ok. What i dont know is how the heck did i not tell my english boyfriend about anything he was my friend around this time. I dodnt tell him about the rape or anything or maybe i did. Actually i did tell him about it and he wamted to kill the spanish man for beating me.up in the face and my boob. And my mom.was telling me.that je wanted to be my husband and i couldnt let go of the spanish guy. I just left the house amd ran away with the spanish man. How the heck did i do that to thr blonde man. Even now he had a party like some years ago after i got abused again and he tried getting back with me amd i push him away. What if everyones soul is lost to the mormons. I swear. Also how did that blonde man know about the fucking mormons. I enver told him.i studied with the mormons. Im still scared. What if i did tell him about the mormons. He got me a lp of the mormon chuch lp. Ok. Im still scared without him. I wish i was at his big millionair church sometimes. Like he always relaxes me.
Here the scary part. He started dating this creepy asiam woman. And the asian woman looks like the asian man you met that considered himself my boyfriendnwho was my friemd. I prayed for him not to marry that asian woman. I got super mad. I dont want to see that blonde man with an asian woman. Luckily she now dating another man. Everyone who wanted to marry me is still single. I dont like talkong about men that want to marry me but to be honest. Im still running from witches. Im scared. Witches are real god please protect all of them from witches.
Thesis statement.
How did the book of mormom make me.into a date alcholic? I didnt want to marry anyone. I wanted my own apartment and job and to live alone. And why are they stealing souls.
Since the english blonde man brought the mormon lp in the house ive been screaming. When i moved it to my new apartment instarted screaming agian. I need to throw it away. I domt like the mormons. They use dmeons and possess people
They belive in poligamy and sodomy.
Did you know the indian wanted to be a poligamist bc i wouldnt marry him. He started talking about owning a binch of woman and he trys to say he will own me again.
I dont like sleeping around with men but i swear i never feel comfortabke with one man. I need them all around me to protect me.
The indian man.even moved near my apartment to protect me in case soemthing bad happens.
I dpmt think he wants to be a poligamist anymore but hes my friend.
What if the blonde man they took into my friends apartment was my boyfriend the millionaife. What if they took his soul he hasnt been ok. He cant even get an errection and i get creeped out bc he doesnt act the same. Like really he became vile. Im scared they took his soul and gave him crystal meth if that old man was him. What if they made him old like my grandpa and then made me date him bc remember the missionary stripper was with a blonde woman and a blonde man.that were dating.
Also kelly that guy the english man who named kyle has an austic brother. Please heed my warning we both dont like him. Sometimes im scared of getting austic bc of his brother. Like im scared. What if the old man was his brother bc he was tall and skinny. They could have taken us out of our hiuse.
Kyle is not a mormon.What if summer is melody and they took her soul and made another human form of her. How am.i gonna find out why you cant talk. I noticed you dont know how to talk. I noticed that kyle doesnt know how to talk. I noticed a lot of my boyfriends cant talk. I noticed that the indian camt talk either. The mormons are abusing us all. Everytime i try to find a normal thing going on soemthing bad happens.theres been possession in the house since the mormons showed up amd anger spells. I never get angry and aince the mormons showed up i get amgry. Ive been checking myself.
Ok. Heres the creepy thing whem i added the mormon on facebok she was nice to me and talking till i told her i was gonna get married. Then she stopped messaging me.
Im scared to be without a harvard man bc theyre beyond intelligent. They have senses that normal people dont have and theyre meek. Meaning they wont talk down to you like those people who go to a regular university. I dont like how you talk down to me with your dad. I used to think uci was a ivy league university when i found out that it isnt. I get paranoid like a lot bc of how they have a street in irvine harvard court or harvard street whatever. Like.how the hell did that woman who introduced us get off by telling me it was a ivy league school. If i knew it wasnt.i would have never hung out with her. No one knew that i went to harvard yet there are people in the school writing that they went to Harvard. Whos the hell is preading rumors about me. And.how did they do it. Theres only two people that i told and they were semi important to the punk rock world in my school. When i told them that they said me and my dad were not inttelectual. They were really smiling and daid it in a way that wasnt rude. What if theyre like now telling those punk rockers ro put up that they went to Haravrd so they feel rhitious or whatever they want to feel. One punk rocker did it in my achool and i dont know if he knew those two people. Then in the other high school another punk rocker wrote he went to Harvard. Im really pissed off how theyre using my dad.
I was put in rsp and i dont know why they would be using me. Theyre not uaing him. They did it to say they could be as rich as my dad. In the real world theyre poor and i known it.
The mormons knew my dad went to Harvard.
There a woman that doesnt talk to me shes kathy. I met her senior year. That year the mormon went to achool to be a paychologist. When i message her she wont speak yet when she comes to visit she will. She went to school to be a psychatric technician. Kayhy knows a nurse who knows one of the punk rockers at my jr year high school.
Alex wasnt in the mental ward nor was phill before i walked in. When i walked in everyone was sent to the mental hospital. You know why??? Ummm wither a it was your mom sending us or b it was the mormon. I still think the mormon persudaded by friend. Do you know i wasnt ovulating correctly when i was with my boyfriend kyle. There was someone in the room telling me i couldnt have kids with him. It was the mormon. She gave me a card to say that i was baptised. I dont like this but i swear im.being baused by a mormon and i dont knownwhen the demons or there theories about jesus are gonna keave the hiuse. Im really fucking sick abiut them and about writing about this. Im writing this all here bc the real bible says that jesus is above a man.
Yeah right im not writing here for anything about jesus. I want people to know how mormons abuse people. Whoever knew the world was round and that a computer would be up we now know mormons abuse people.
Kelly you in the book at harvard with me but you didnt go to harvard. You went to another university. The man that bought the apartment is at harvard and he went to school for surguries and i wemt to school for nursing. I dont think he took me there.
Im also on campus with another name you came up with ok. Like you keep putting me at school with my dad alone.
I found another boyfriend and he there like a black man. Hes actually white with blue eyes and in his space he talks about impreganting people in jamiaca. Im creeped out. Ok like really creeped out. Why dont you apply to harvard with me.
Like are you still hiding out at uci. Like also i found out that you went to school in michigan and kansas. Ok i got cursed by an indian with his friend from kansa . And then i got curses by this family in michicgan. So basically you need to start writing peoems to save me or soemthing. Like im sock theyre all dam ing me. And i dont know why vernon is there as a surgeon. Im creeped out. Vernon actually saved my body and i was thin and happy for a long time. But people keep attacking me in the street agian
Every time i get thin someone starts attacking me.
Kelly my mom went to the psychward the year the mormons came to.the house. It was jr year in high school. Also my dad. My dad went to the mental hospital. Ok my mom was let out of the 5150 my dad put her on. And my dad never told me.if he was put on one. The mormons are trying to hospitilize us. Im sick of this. What if your mom and sister got to the mental hospital in high school. Mormons put people in the mental hospital if they dont go to the church and.worship joseph smith.
Your title page hurts. My head always hurts when i read also, terrible.
I found out why you broke up with me. Um in 2007 my friend took me to a john williams show in hollywood bowl.i didnt know that guy thought i was dating him. He seriously said he was a non hetrosexual man. And you knew everything. Hahaha im nervously laughing right now. Sean likes laughing at things that happen but im really upset right now. Like furious. He seriously destroyed all my plams to be a mommy with you that year. You didnt break up with me bc we disagreed it was over the hollywood bowl thing.
Hey did you know that the guy who had a crush on me plays horatio. That means were gonna be able to see ghosts. That means we dont know whos the ghost. You or me. Me and the crush are really creeped out bc we dont know whats going on the real plane of reality tv. Like how the hell did that guy kmow i had a crush on him. Remember he stopped the whole play amd stared me out. I dpmt know why he stopped in the play when we were there. Me and the guy who commincates with me from the play think sharon is a serial killer.
I found out what happened. Im looking at my step brothers girldriend. And she looks like you or maybe she changed to look like you. Remember what happenes to your siater that year we got engaged. I still think my step brother raped that woman. I still think that sharada left with my brother and used your body and changed. Call me weird never. I think sharada is using your body and lwft with my brother. That woman that came up to my house kicked mw out of the house and mentally abused me. The woman is tall and now she has a similar nose like you. Or what you think she took our daughter. We never legally had children. Dude i sont know what going on but i do know our siblings are clincally insane. And evil. We mever aske for much and they always want to physically amd mentally abuse us. I cant wait till the new heaven then all the abusers will be put to death. I have a tally lf humans i want put to death. They can have fun now but when the new heaven comes we wont have to be abused and we will finallt have fun.
Forgive me for my speech. I thonk soemthing fishy is going on and i cant put my finger on it. But i know your not a demon. I think something fishy is going on and i cant put my finger on it. I can onyl asume things. Also what if sharon is your mother. Ooooo i saw she was working with humans that looked like the humans your mother works with. If thats your mother she left with some.african dude and bandoned me in the house. And had childrem with and afircma dude.
Ok. Ok. Heres the other blow. What if that woman is your duaghter. And not sharad . Then we got raped again by my step brother. And were grandparents now. So how would they do that how would they take a childe and raise it. Ill tell you how you crazy fucking white guy by voting for an african. Thats how. You voted for an african. I voted for kerry. When you voted for the african. He held me hostage. Bc amy pauls girlfriend mother is married to an african. Thats how all this nonsense happened. Im.not gonna have sex ever agian.im tired of waling up and seeing debauchery everywhere. Ok ok. Ok
Did you know my step sister hit my ca . And now her daughter is gonna get married to this blonde dude. And she keeps sating its my son.
I keep thinking its my ex boyfriend. Hes the one that was torturing me on the property. Hes a machinest. He was threatening to burn me alive on the property. Then i saw my nice drive in. So i think shes with my ex. Like he shape shifted and left with him and they keep thinking its my son.
He wanted to get back with me and i said no. And he was torturing me before he asked to be with me. I didnt know it was him.
So who the fuck is amy robles. Remeber sharon robles was with us that year.
I hope to god its your sister. Sharon robkes keeps saying shes your mom.
See how vile your family is. Theyre vile.
I woke up from sleep just now. Ive been noticing that i really am differemt now than i ever was before. I actually have a chemical lebotomy. I mostly sleep now. Its a huge nusance that im not thinking the way i ised to think. It sucks in a huge way but in another way im relieved that i have less stress. It feel like the tip of my brain on my forehead were missing. Super gross. Super gross. I never knew that this would ever come to pass in my exsistance but it did.
Also i havent left my parents house since the cornoa virus statted and it just keeps getting worse. It was not too long ago thag someons sliced my ears with a knife. I had a aorta of a tatoo near my knee and someone i dislike very much just grabbed the knife and cut my ears. I dont kmow what shall pass but im dreaming of the new system and also dreaming that i can get through everyday just a little longer.im in so much trouble.
When they sliced my ear it was in imaginary world. Meaning i didnt sit there and endure it. I was kist relaxing and someons grabbed a knife. It was that beligerant son my mother has. I dont know when he will leave my body or my mind. He always growns and abuses my waking conciouss. I would have not had a chemical lebotomy if it was not for him. I feel like im in some.sorta hell bc if him. I never knew people could be so rude ans ugly inside. Please god let me wale up from this nightmare.
I dont want to leave my parents house ever. And the age is getti g daunting their age compared to mine. Im really in a really knotted up exsistance. I wake up and continuously hear this girl talking to me and shes always sounding happy. Shes was a witch and may still be a witch and my sister told her about my stay with the doctor. Shes always at my fingertips and i cant stand hearing her. I dont know what she wanta from me but im gonna have to lear to love her some way bc she wont shut the fuck up ever. She talks to my subconscious. Sometimes i can feel hee blood inside me and other i can feel her dead brothers blood in me and it boils. Its like the little.boy wants to fill the spot in my head that waa burned out. Its one of the most weird experiences evwr. Its nice in way but its not my own mind or my own blood. Its gross. I just keep thinking about how he got murdered and how he wont leave my body ever. Im not trying to aimmon him right now. I can only hear the woman talk. I just pray that there isnt anymore causalities in the future. I hate achizophrenia that i have bc i can hear peoplea inner thoights. Its disturbing.
Im not playing chess with you anymore.
Im gonna stop having stress about money. Im applying for ssi bc of aspergers syndrome. Im permanent antisocial. Its a real issue. I have evidence bc i was in a rsp class. I dont have a low IQ its a high IQ but im antisocial behavior is real. I hope they really give me my check. Im gonna apply for an annuity with the money i get. So i have money when im old. Im excited. I cant wait to get the stress out about money.
You think the problems we had is your dad. No way!!! Its my dad. Hes evil and vile. Hes the one that made you think your gay or a trans man. Hes the one that abused you and me. Ive been interviewing peoples internal dialog. My dads a bigot and hes an envious man. Hes not a happy soul. Hes my general malaise everyday. These are the words hes been saying: go fuck yourself. And asshole.
You dont believe me remember the day i met your dad. He gave me a big hug and a smile. He never hurt me ok. So if someone is being a jerk behold the truth its my dad. You loved me a lot. He used your soul and made us seperate.
Hes been torturing me for ages. I hope to god i get the disability check. I dont want to say everything but after he yelled at me he started putting a glass shard to my neck. He wont stop torturing me.
I told him i was leaving the house and he sat in my head and then started depleating my brain matter.
So dont you go accusing your dad of being racsist to me. Thats my father. Ok. Hes the raceist man.
I have to edit that im still betting money that all these internal voices that come out around my family or people i talk to come from this african american father that lives in the community. But by chance if its not true. I swear your not gay. The man that is my mothers son keeps saying all my boyfriends are gay. And my father is a bigot jerk all the time. So guess what im hopeing you find a way to push your internal love that i have for you or that you have for me to have external voices away from my family bc theyre gonna make you life a living hell.
I dont ever want to hit my head ever again.
I wont ever hurt myself ever agian when i have the freedom to be free and happy.
Are you Rasputin kelly? Im not talking about raspados. Like really are you him.Also did you know your friend dark hippo look like harry potter. Does that mean he is prince harry.
If your rasputin why are we away from each other. Im tired of working for america. Dont believe me. Also by some weird way are you prince philups. Hahaha i shut down sears in costa mesa so they dont sell your philips screw driver sets. Hahah rasputin.
Sin. Mm
Im playing around. Im not joking i didnt do anything its satan again kelly. Satan saw me unhappy in costa mesa so he fixed up the whole town even the street names say its about art colony. I got scared at sears bc i didnt want to run i to the mechanic that hit me. So guess what satam closed the sears down in town. Also i got scared at toy r rus bc the toys were not pretty so he closed down the toy r rus. Costa mesa is pretty now but i left. I dont like it there anyway. You know how you call me princess all the time. And how satan speaks to you. See how you havent asked him for anything. He even make a new tool store orchard store. To replace the ugly sears so i wouldnt be bullied. My friend from middle school worked at the sears. I started laughing when he lost his job.
If im a princessess eveeyone knows it. I worked at walmart and everyone kept calling me princess and aaking me why i wasnt home with my parents.so i quit my job bc i dont wamt to make them mad. So which princess am i.im fighting off satan off in the house. He having fun. He almost lifted me off the couch. My mom wamted me to have fun. And he still hasnt lifted me off the couch. She alwaya talks fo him and makes fun of him if he doesnt have fun with me. Im sad bc there no cute toys. When you broke up with me years ago kb toys waa shut down. When some guy i knew wouldnt buy me any cds they closed down virgin mobil so he couldnt buy cds. Why is satan so cute. He always punishes people who make me feel sad.
I dont like saying its satan working but i think he was mad that i didnt feel at home so he put up lighys on a building and it looked like where my dad worked years ago. Theres a philz coffee next to it. I think satan moved it there bc i hated foing to starbucks i kept stuttering everyday bc im tired of the lizard tail mermaid. The philz coffee is way cooler. Im so happy the town changed but im stilll back home and safe.
You left your princesses friend alone in the mind. You still fancy yourself a vile man.
My dads fat bc satans angry at him bc he wont take me back home. Im tired if how fat we get at home.
Sharon wanted to kill me she travels in the spirit realm and she has drugs i dont talk to her. Ive seen her turn pasty white in town.
Also if you dont belive me you better now betray me bc satan is real and he always makes life interesting for me. Please dont ever worship another woman or bad thinhs would happen. Remember you wede homelesa. Remember i warned you not to hurt me ever or anyone i know. Like we have to be nice.
I do want to work. Im trying to imagine more nice things. When phil wouldnt call look for you and ignored me and started talking about things i dont care about. Satan opened up philz coffee so i wouldnt feel him anymore and start sobbing bc he dodnt care enough about my feelings. So i can wake up amd just remember there was a philz coffee house. See how cool he is. Basically i dont care about phil anymore. Bc satam was saying go to the coffee shop and go meet a new phil and philz coffee. Hahaha haha hahaha your friends cant break me down. They even have a rose coffee at the coffee shop.
I couldnt stand the chicksn at this resturant so he closed it down and opened up the buffolo wild wings. I think satan thinks i like them bc i bloged about it. Then i started comparing myself to mexican americans and i felt sad bc theyre mean so satan opemed up elena de avalor at disneyland so i wouldnt feel scared an alone. On another note i think he waa trying to tell sharon to stop hurting me and getting jealous of me. So he made a doll that has her skin color. Cool iant it. When i met you and satan talked to you i didnt appreciate how you got scared when he laughed at you. He was trying to ask you what you wanted in the town. When you broke up with me he stop serving your favorite olive bread and the deli
Corner stone bakery.
I was complianing for a long tim in my head that there wasnt enough indy cool coffee ahops in costa mesa and the 7 tea leaves opened up. There was a yoshinoya there and i got mad at them bc they were selling long grain rice and not calrose rice. So he told them off and took there jobs and opened 7 tea leaves coffee shop.
Also i got mad at hello kitty store bc the jewlert was too expenaive and i coulsnt take this asian girl annoying me. So he closed down hello kitty and i threw away most of my hello kitty memrobelia. I felt embaressed in costa mesa bc there wasnt enough italian shops so they opened this new resturant that italian shop called stone fire grille. Then he opened and italian ice cream shop. I coudlnt stand the seating arrangement and how creepy it looked and the peanut butter ice cream so he closed it down. Why does satan always buy me new junk to buy like he really listens to me and changes the scene around me.
I told myself i couldnt stand the vegetables at el super the mexican supermarket bc it was too expensive amd its been going on for years theres protestors trying to shut it doan and they wont.
I saw sharada working at a supermarket and she didnt wave at me. I got super jealous she had a job so satan closed down the vons or whatever amd he opened up Super king market on mac aruther street and she lost her job there. Its called s and k market meaning sharada and kelly market. Its really nics. They have an italian deli in there. See how she made you break up with me that year i paid her back. Satan always send me.presents in the mail. Even the freeway says cleaned by m and k. Marikyn and kelly. Its off the harbor blvd freeway. I got paranoid at first when i saw the changed but its satan doing it. He doesnt want me to leave america. Remember im a princesses. Hes like catering to me personally.
Dont believe me that satan is on my side. Basically i was being bullied in costa mesa by my ex jp and hia girl friend. They would drive around me stop amd laugh. So satan made a videos of his girlfriend and made fun of her. So he can be a proud mad un public. Yeah right. Its super funny.the singer is lizzo. Her sister my ex girlfriend sister is named lizzy. So like look at the video is halarious and catchy. He always talks about how righous she is. When she walks down the street theyre gonna ask for autogtaphs. Hahaha
No one makes fun of me without a responce from satan.
https://www.google.com/search?client=ms-android-tmus-us-sscr-revc&sxsrf=ALeKk01BhSy1LjZ5qjFQlAPzbAOhYMwB9w:1591842969885&q=lizzo+truth+hurts&stick=H4sIAAAAAAAAAONgFuLSz9U3qMpOy80qU-LVT9c3NEwzzMrNTa_I1hL0LS3OTHYsKsksLgnJD87PS1_EKpiTWVWVr1BSVFqSoZBRWlRSDADrLY_eRAAAAA&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwi39oeW3fjpAhW-JTQIHVkwBcEQri4wEnoECAoQAw&biw=320&bih=530&dpr=2.25
The song is truth hurts by lizzo. It made me get over how hunky dory they are. Ugly gat bitch haha
She wouldnt stop fucking with my in costa mesa and my house and she wouldnt shut the fuck up and leave me alone. So i amde fun if her with satan. Like she wouldnt shut the fuck up so i moved her voice the music label and made stan make fun of the fat ugly bitch. Im sock of the foo talking about how perfect she is. What if its her sisted lizzy. Whoever it is. Ita cool not having to hear her vocie. And i love all the videos up. So he can be aware of how pretty she is and how to leave ms the heck alone. Hahaha
She still obecene. Hopefully its enough musoc to get her off of me. Im tired if having to see them i think satan chased them out of towm and they stopped following me when i heard the song on the radio.
Excuse me im sorry for dirtying our blog up with thay muscican with a bit of ac/dc get off my fucking blog you crazy african american woman and leavs me the heck alone. Leave my family and my mind alone.
You know im seeing my princess past life. But in the waking life i keep lookong at your picture and you really look like authur miller. The play wright. How is tjat your called that and im named marilyn. That would mean your my past life husband. That means i dont want to gst rid of you bc the stars run across the sky when were together. Like the irony. You in a wind fall and you dont even get it. Like you need to come back and marry me again. I take it back. Firsti worked for playboy and now im trying to seperate myself from you. Ps i dont want to make you mad anymore i miss your dorky smile kelly. Its the dorkyest and funniest one ever. Like your smile melts my ache. Please listen to me. What if your really rasputin and your supposed to cure me of my illnessess. Like if your not rasputin then which one are you. But wait dont look to back in time look at your auther miller smile. When we walk the whole crowd gathers and cheers. I miss being popular.
Basically if you can spread the word around you need to please make a note that they take betadine off the market. Some people think im african american bc of the bedadine. When i was a little girl i had a near death experience and they put bedadine on my flesh. It took my pretty skin away. My parents paid a lot of money for my birth and im learning though people i meet and i think they swab humans with bedadine. I used to thinm they were born from sodomy and it grossed me out but it might actually be bedadine. Why dont they have any surgical scrub with lemons or clear etc things.
I cry everyday and have problems bc of my surgery it hurts a lot. I forget about it all the time and pretend that im mad at the world or others. I pass out everyday since the surgery happemed and i cant concentrate. Remeber you got mad at me one day for certain things like legos. It was over the surgery. I want the world to know am i really in the non white hispanic hand. Nah bc no one knew this but that means your african. Im not non white hispanic and now i know why i didnt pass my classes bc i kept saying i was non white hispanic.
Im still wordering that doesnt matter my legs hurts. Are you rich yet so you can like spend thoze expensivs moneyz on lasering off my hair and the skin problems from the surgery on my leg. I dont havs rubella i think im allergic to the freaking chemical bedadine on my legs. I have cysts all over my skin and rashes and it hurts. In tbe beging ths bedadine feela good but im alleegic. What if bedadine is for non white hispanics.
This hillbikly been going places and seeing places but no other stuff online or in the stores. Am i really in the left hand of jesus.
If your rich now maybe you clean up my leg and pay for the stain to get off my leg it hurts.
My grandpa stabbed me there. I thought it was for him to come back rich and give me mkney. What if he just doesnt love me bc hes one of thos big white supremist men. And he tbinks my dads a non white hispanic.yeah right i got the dna test hes white. Skinny freaking jerk better stop stabbing ms it hurts.
You should be graduated by now from college or the jniversity so you take me to the movies. And we atop dating weirdos.
The money i made i cant touch it. Im creeped out.
Whatever just send your white supremist letters so they get rid of bedadine. It looks like something they put on african americans.
I had a stamp collection and they had a lot of african stamps from the newspaper. What up greater los angles and orange county. Why is there bedadine. Like what woman you made md mad gst to bed and dine now. Your brown now since i married you.
hey listen to blink 182. They have a song called romeo and rebecca. I dont know whats it about. But also guess what i found out. My birthday is on juliettes burthday from shakespear. And there even a school named william school near me. Weird isnt. Travis barker kinda looks like you.
Im being pushed around again by my childmolester. He wont freaking leave the house and my rib cage keeps gettin crushed. He useing my circultory ststem and my rib cage and pushing me interanlly. Goawd i wish the corona virus puts me to sleep so i stop getting childmolested. Its cool how i dont ever gwt my freedom back. Also guess what the neighbor looks like hugh hefner. What does that mean someons trapped me in playboy in the 1950s. Cool isnt it. He looks like the angel moroni in the mormon church. Creepy.
What if i dont even know my parents. I make wishes that are far out. Like being on television and the shows i want show up but i dont look like i look. I practice how to surfe the tv. So what if i ended up in a little comittee of actors and im stuck and i dont knkw my orginal family. Im scared of them they all act like vultures.
No ones an indian. I'll stop talking foolish thoughts about anyone. I eat too much food and dont excercise bc im scared of being pulled over by cops. I dont do anything. Ive been praying to pass away for years and god hasnt put me to rest. I dont know whos paying for the apartments near me but theres too many stranger around. It doesnt seem like anyone comes homt to the same apartment.
This schixophrenia is not schizophrenia. Its getting out of control. My parents came over in spirit and like hit my knee. I can barely walk. My knee hurts really bad. I dunno why but theyve been atatcking me i wasmt even near them when it happened. This is the third time. Someone hit my ear last time. Someone has witchcraft on me.
I want an old fashioned house like a victorian house or an edwardian house. And then i want many pretty lacy white dresses. So get snappy and work and buy me a house am pretty dresses. If we can find them.ill make them. Or ill teach you how to sew and you make them. Please then well have a veranda and ill sit on your lap and well read the newpaper like old times and drink tea and coffee out of cute cups.
Marilyn.
I dialed you name from the white pages. Someone answered jose olevera. Ok. You dont have a facebook open one up with your name so i can add you. Marilyn
Im not christian or catholic anymore.do you want to buy me a cheap house in anotger state and we move in together??? Mary lyn
The hamsters we had were called marilyn and kelly.
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